This was a crazy summer. It was so full—full of life, redemption, healing, repentance, love. So full of growth, learning, pain, and humility by submission. I feel like He has been teaching me to walk more fully in faith. I'm so glad He provided LFR for practice. I didn't feel Him most of the summer. I was emotionally drained, which merged into my physical and spiritual life as well, yet everything was right. Oddly, just, right. The enemy was close, the one who tries to distract us with the world, from our King and the redemption he brings, yet my Shepherd was ever closer. He has guided and protected me on this journey for the missing sheep. And despite this world, I cannot contain His blessings; they pour over. He pursues me like a hunter pursues his prey. And He waits patiently, desiring relationship with us, granted by the blood of His Son. I tried to worship with what I had, and it didn't always feel like much. But this summer was so good, feeling such a rightness unwavering compared to the unstable unreliable emotions of this world. I won't lie, it was quite distracting at times. Why turn aside for the unfulfilling distractions when the Kingdom is straight ahead? Sometimes, we get on the Jesus ministry boat because it seems adventurous and fun. Like a nice experience, with a cool moral stamp so we can feel good about it. What do we do when the going gets tough and Jesus demands everything we once thought was everything? Receive His strength to live as His hands and feet. We are His body, raised for all to see Him. Resurrected for all to believe, in Him. He came to take away the sins of the world, and we are before the world as a testimony of His love and His mercy as we wait behind enemy lines. It is no longer I, but He fights the battle for me. I got to see that so well this summer.
The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.
He makes me to lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside the still waters.
He restores my soul; He leads me in the paths of righteousness for His name’s sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; For You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.
You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; You anoint my head with oil; My cup runs over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life; and I will dwell in the house of the Lord, forever.
— Psalm 23 (NKJV)